That Face, That Look, That Feeling

Dear Someone,

There is that face you always give.
Your eye brows pull together, making your brow fold a little.
You pull your lips in a little, making them look more like a line.

And to top everything off!

There are those eyes.
Completely locking on to the gaze of the other person. 
Two pools of utter misery from being worried.

That part can break anyone's wall they have around themselves.  Letting the flood gates open.  Tears streaming.

Yes. It's a terrible thing that happens.
But. You can't help it.  You can't make it happen.
It only happens when its for a person you care about.

The fact that I have had to endure the look.

Those heart wrenching eyes.
That sad, almost puppy dog like look. . .
That means I'm important to you. 

Somewhere in your heart, I'm there.

So, even though I hate that look you give me oh so many times,
I like it.
Because I know you care.

Dear Someone,

Even though it doesn't work NOW... Doesn't mean it wont later...
So... I'm gonna keep my hopes up, fingers crossed, and I'll just wait happily till everything gets worked out on its own.
:)

*Sigh*

Dear Someone,

..... Seriously???
..... Really??????
Ugh. You are so flippin stupid and you don't even realise it.
It's like "Hey!Hello there! Me! Slightly attractive girl RIGHT infront of you!!!" but no... You just kinda keep looking at that one girl. Who just happens to be kind of a jerk face who wears a pound of make up.
Yup . . . That's just sooo awesome.
I really love that. Thanks.
:P

Singles Awareness Day

Dear Someone,

Tomorrow is February 14th. You know what that means right?
Yes. The day that makes every single person out there feel like crap. You try not to but you can;t help but think about how lonely you are.
Lame right?
Why should I be thinking about how lonely I am? I'm only sixteen!
So. You know what.
I'm going to try REALLY hard to NOT think about how lame it is. You know. I'll just think about all the chocolate the popular girls are going to get and hope they get fat.
oh yes. That would be extremely funny. I think I would cry laughing. :)

You know what would be really cool....

Dear Someone,

You know what would be really cool?
Is to have have my own book get published or something.  Like . One full of tons of little random things I write.  Like things that I post on here. My Blog... The blog that no one reads.  That and the stuff that I save in my super secret folder on my about-to-die-of-old-age-lap top.
Yeah It could be called something like.
Awesome Sauce and French Fries.
OR!
..... Well I can't think of anything better at the moment....
BUT it shall come to me soon. :)
ok.
That's all I wanted to say for right now.

Me and Harry Potter Have Something In Common.

Dear Someone,

Every one has their own scars.  I know I do.
But see. Since its a scar now. It means it has healed.  It doesn't hurt any more.
..
Ok that was a lie. I am a liar pants.
It's pretty much like a Harry Potter scar.  It's there in plain view in front of everyone. They all know the story behind the scar and how it has effected me, but it doesn't hurt...
Unless you-know-who is around. and no. We are not talking about Voldemort in this situation right now.
It doesn't hurt every single time.  Actually its becoming less and less. But now. When it happens. It hurts worse.  But it only happens after something relatively cute happens. Or. Well could have been cute and then... That when things go down hill.
Even though it hurts sometimes...
I like that I have it.  It gives me recurrence that.. There used to be something there.  It wasn't just all in my head, or that it can just be brushed off to the side.  It's there. Forever. Making me grow up and learn from it.

Never Would Have Guessed By Just Looking.

Dear Someone,

You know how there is always that one person you see walking around school and you just can't figure them out to save your life. You hear "nicest person EVER! so funny and yet so naive about pretty much everything"
Never hurt a fly kind of a person, blah blah blah. Alright I get it. They are awesome. Whoopty Doo.
No matter you still get the vibe that there is something more to that person then what everyone sees...
It's funny / really sad when you actually find out that your gut instinct is correct.  You were right.  They are actually an evil master mind with an extremely deviant and complicated plan to ruin every one's life in high school to get what/who ever THEY want. Not caring about the destruction they create or the tears that come along with it.
It's mind blowing! You were actually right about something no one else understood.  But this person is like a spy with a cover up story and everything.
Now knowing this.  That little act they play, you now can spot out the fake in it.  See how they manipulate people around them. Befriend people to gain something for themselves.  
It's like a black whole.  You get pulled in by this powerful force then, once inside... No escaping. They have you in their clutches.  Now you're just a toy to them.  Like a Barbie Doll.  They can play with you, you think you are best friends never going to get separated. Then one day "Oops." (said very sarcastically by the way.)They just tore off your empty plastic head as they laugh like Mandark from Dexter's Laboratory.
...Sad huh?
But HEY! maybe you could have had a better life then just getting played and broken.  Maybe you could have been happy with someone else. But... now that chance came and past.

You never would have guessed that by just looking right?