My Favorite Flavor of Man Candy ;)

Dear Someone,

So, this is a collection of guys I think are supper attractive and all deserve to be my computer screen's wallpaper for a little bit :)

Enjoy :)

Justin Bieber <3 

Taylor Lautner 

Jude Law ... yum <3 

Chris Pine <3 

Zac Efron 

David Boreanaz
Also known as Booth from my personal favorite show Bones <3
Also. Seriously. Booth. PERFECT man for me. Just sayin. 

Mark Salling
Puck from Glee... love him... 

Josh Duhamel

Justin Bieber again!
See. He had sent my very best friend a personalized video last year before she passed away from cancer and this is a screen shot of the video so. I love this picture. 

Josh Dallas
on Once Upon a Time and plays Prince Charming :)) 

Josh Huterson <3 <3 <3

Little Leonardo Dicaprio <3 

Joe Jonas all grown up :) 

Darren Criss
Blaine from Glee <3 

Josh Huterson again... cause ... he's a babe ;)

OK! So. Hope you enjoy that ... cause I did ;)

"Buddy The Elf, What's Your Favorite Color?"

Dear Someone,

It's the Christmas season and everyone is gearing up for the morning that you finally get to rip open all those presents that have been sitting under the tree just taunting you all month.

However, I think the best part of Christmas are the days that are leading up to the big day to be quite honest.  Get's you excited :D

Sitting around, drinking hot chocolate, making cookies, eating far too much and telling stories about past Christmas's. All very important.  Yet... My favorite thing are the Christmas movies.

My favorite?
I have to say is Elf starring Will Ferrell and Zooey Deschanel.

I used to not like it (like most people) I can see why, it's just a little weird first time around.
But once you just embrace the Christmas loving man who grew up as a elf his whole life and just wants to find his real family, you love it :)

How could you not eventually want to watch this movie on repeat????
It's cute, whimsical, and makes you just smile :) Also, there is love.  Love is aways needed in a movie if you ask me.

But you know what my favorite part it?

When Buddy takes Jovie (Zooey Deschanel) out on a date and takes her to all the places he thought were cool when he first came to New York.

Yes, some of the places he took her were rather lame but, the fact that he wanted to share that with her is cute, and expresses his feelings for her in a way that most guys wouldn't really think to do.
But, it also takes a special kind of girl to go along with it and have fun out on the date like she did.

Yes, sit down dinners at a fancy place with a piano playing in the back ground with candles lit everywhere is exciting but... There is something that seems more appealing to me about having a little adventure.

One where it's just about going random places and pure fun.  No plans, no reservations, just showing up somewhere and making a night of it, driving around and getting lost together and stumbling upon something new.

It's getting to know the other person, if you drive or just walk around.  You end up feeling up the night with stories after stories.  So really, adventures do two things for ya.

1. You get to know each other really well and also have fun on top of it with out it being supper awkward.
2. You now have a supper cool story to tell you're friends that just might make them jealous from the seer cuteness of your evening with the fella ;)

I don't know, it seems like the best way to fall in love in stead of some right-off-the-bat incredibly intense romantic relationship.  Fun seems more relaxing and easy to manage.

Anyway, back to the movie!
They had an adventure and fell in love.  That's what I like about that movie... That and Buddy found his dad and saves Santa on Christmas Eve... That was also good :)

... favorite line in the movie... :) 

Their little Adventure around New York :) 

Pausing Video Games to Reply = LOVE ;)

Dear Someone,

Going back and rereading past text messages that make you get butterflies all over again are the best, I must say.

You don't want to, but you can't help it.  It happens to anyone who has a spare moment to kill.  So, you end up pulling you're phone out quickly and scanning through them from the beginning.

Looking over them, you can actually let them sit longer in you're thoughts because you are not in a panic to think of a witty reply with on  the spot.  You get to actually soak up what the words say on your little phone screen.  Making it next to impossible not to blush and smile like a kid on christmas morning.

Well, that's the good part at least.

Being able to go back over them can also be a curse.  Being a teenage girl with hopeless romantic fantasies of this guy being your Prince Charming, they tend to read too much into it. And honestly, I know everyone has done that, can't deny it.  It happens to the best of us unfortunately...

Yet... You can't help but slightly freak out when you had asked him what he was up to and he replied saying "Playin xbox. You? :)"

Everyone knows that if a guy pauses his video games to text you back or at all... There is defiantly something going on his end ;)

Which I must say, makes it even harder to not read into the winky faces, asking how you're really doing when you say "I'm fine", and texting you when they get home after y'all hung out and wants to talk for hours on end even though you talked all night while being together.

Can't really blame you're self for building up that hope!

Yet, there is always that dreadful fear that, he might not actually like you.  He's just being a really good friend. Or, just doesn't see you like that and actually just likes talking to you and the feelings aren't there.
Those thoughts are inevitable to avoid.  Even if you were 99.9% sure he liked you.
That .1% can get ya.

But come on... Texting you while playing video games??
Kind of a big deal. ;)

Seriously, he loves you ;)

But I Doubt That

Dear Someone,


Everyone has those random down times were they are just kind of chillin' out and just thinking about stuff. Like. I don't know, I always find my self reflecting on Middle School.

Like me, everyone on the face of the planet; their worst years were Middle School. Those are the years of the uncomfortable transition from a child to a teenager. You don't know how to deal with zits let alone  make-up.  You gotta figure out what clothes are cool and what aren't.  The constant feeling of fitting in.  Looking back, you were basally trying to be a clone of someone who started the newest trend for the twelve year olds...
It's kinda like Twitter and everyone is retweeting something.
Fortunately, Inever reached the full on copy-cat level. (Who knows what I'd be like if I had... o.o)
But, lot's of stuff happened... More like friends.  Making them, losing them. That stuff. But one moment sticks out in my brain all the time that just makes me want to hid under a blanket from the awkwardness that is forever tied with it.

This kid. (a very stupid boy if you ask me.) told me he liked me. And after a few awkward encounters of trying to flirt we ended up kissing. (Which is a big deal! I wasn't one of those girls who would be givin' out free kisses in the slide at recess) But clearly our relationship went down the tubes after a few hours. And I was made fun of for a while... Great right? Just one of the OTHER beautiful things about middle school. Teasing.

Anyway. The point of me telling that snip it of my life, I'm friends with this guy on Facebook. I just see his profile picture and it's just his face RIGHT THERE smiling as he stares at me scrollin' though my news feeds.  It's so awkward cause it's like...
Really?
The one time I had anything remotely close to "love" and it had to be you? Of all 6 billion people out there in the world? You? Really? Clearly someone out there hates me -.-
And there he is on Facebook with a new girl friend every now and then.  And I'm just left sitting there thinking... Girly, you must be one desperate girl or his actually changed a lot to be a somewhat tolerable to be around...
But I Doubt That.

Why Must You Happen Today??

Dear Someone,

You know how holidays are the only days out of the year that one actually uses their camera -Well. Parents at least- and they always have to have a ton of pictures of you to then put into a photo album.  Those things are like time capsules. Yet, every relative and friend who likes to look at you're awkward pictures will see it. . .
But you know what I noticed -this might just be me, or it could happen to other people too.  If not... This post is gonna be awkward o.o - BUT!
You always get huge zits before a certain camera occasion!
Like, "Oh hey! Yeah take a million pictures of me and there is basically a huge blemish on my face... thanks."
So, trying to avoid this situation when you're Mt. Everest will be forever captured in a photo graph. You attempt at putting cover up on! I mean it looks pefrectly fine when they do it in commericals and on movie starts.  They look flawless! It will look great on you too, right?
Oh wait a sec.
You're whole life is an awkward moment.
So, you tried to fix it. But then after you smear coverup and a flurry of cover up.  It looks worse then it did before. I mean then it was just slightly pink. But no. Now it's as if a neon sign is right there screaming "HEY LOOK AT ME!!!"
Then you're left sitting there looking down at you're outfit, "Maybe a ski make would go with this...?"

Well, I wish I had a beauty tips to avoid this awful thing from ever happening to someone on the day of.
But I don't.

Basically what you do when you first see the thing that will inflict awkwardness in any Holliday photos taken that day. 

Freshmen. Shield Your Eyes... No One Needs To See That...

Dear Someone,

Ah. Puppy love. There is nothing cuter then that, am I right? The awkward stages of life when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend for just a few months -or weeks- at a time.
Me being a Junior in high school. I see it a lot. Prime time to see this stage in other peoples lives?
The hall way.
Oh the hall way.
It's crammed, everyone is pushing to get to their next class or doing just the opposite by standing there hogging up walking space. Those are two things I don't look forward to after the bells ring. But. The third thing?
Intence PDA.
I can handle a cute little "Ok see ya' soon" peck on the lips before separating for class.
Then there is the other type of goodbye kiss...
No.
I take that back!
It's more like WAIT! let-me-suck-your-face-off-first goodbye/ freaking awkward moment for everyone else who is unfortunately in the area as it is happening.
However, some couples don't seem to grasp the fact that everyone can see you, and yes. I mean everyone. Teachers, Janitors, fellow peers. I honestly feel bad for the freshmen that walk by and are exposed to that kind of intimate moment for couples.
Since I'm a junior and almost a legal adult I handle it. Do I like it? No, no I do not.
Honestly, y'all can make out to your hearts content. But in public?? WHY?? Do you not have another place to do that? Or do you just like the attention from doing that?
Also, another thing I would rather not see...

Those awkward and uncomfortable things that. just happen.
Heres a little story for ya that actually happened to me.

There is this couple that have been goin out for a while.  One day I was walking down the hallway, minding my own business, and I see them walking down the hallway towards me.  They were holding hands being the cute people they are.  Then suddenly, she looks up at him, and just licks the side of his face. He just laughed and they kept walking.
It honestly took me a minute to let that moment sink in to my brain.

Did she just...Yup... Ew.... Kind of discussing.  Why would you do that??

After mulling it over I remembered that they were just kinda weird to begin with. So, licking faces would be considered normal... for them at least.
So, I think if you are going to do something weird like for instance; lick the side of your lover's face... Don't do it in public.
It will be forever etched into other peoples brains.
Just a heads up.
So, me being a junior, just a warning.

Freshmen. Shield Your Eyes... No One Needs To See That...

I saw this, and felt like this is true for everyone!
Goes with what I was talking about, but then...
It's True.
It's cute when old people show public displays of affection...
It's kind of adorable(: 

Guess Who's Back ;)

Dear Someone,
So! It's official, I'm back!
I used to blog all the time, and then one day it just stopped.
Thanks to special someone (you know who you are ;)
I realized how much i actually missed Blogging.  People think that people who blog are loners and have no friends so they turn to the internet to spill out their guts out cause they have no one else to turn to.
But for me, I guess I do it so more people can read and be like "Oh! I'm not alone! Other people think that too!" Cause some of the things I write about go through other peoples heads. Especially girls. Cause I'm a girl. Clearly.
Anyway.
The blog is got more swag now. I changes the background, got new pictures, BUT the old post are still there. So. Scroll through and check them out :)
Thank you so much!!
I'll try to post something every week. :)
So, it's official, I'm back :)

... Can't Help It... I Have To Talk About It....

Dear Someone,

Everyone has their own opinions right?
If we didn't... life would be as boring as dry toast.... yuck right? Right.
But there are those times were it's like

Really... Thanks for stating you're thoughts and feelings about the topic but... What you're saying isn't gonna change how I feel about it AT ALL so you might as well just. STOP. TALKING... I'm not trying to be mean.  I just am getting rather tired of you ranting for an hour about why I am wrong and you are oh so right.

Reason why I am finally starting to talk about this? Because. It happened today. It finally got to me. The fact that people just love to go ON and ON about.... Justin Bieber.

Ok, I shall admit it.  I have Bieber fever.
But, it's a low grade fever.... Not the kind were I need to go to the hospital because I might DIE of it.

So, ok. I respect that a lot of people don't like him (which is good. Gives me more of a chance with him ;) haha kidding!!) But, there are also a lot of people who DO like him.
ok. Yeah, he used to sound like a girl, thats cause he was like... What? 13 when he recorded those songs? Um... Do tell me. What 13 year old boy has their full deep man voice already? If you know one please let me know.  Because I just talked to a junior in high school who's voice just started to crack.

Yeah yeah yeah, I know. If any one ever reads this and they are hard core Bieber haters then you're probably gonna want to debate with me and think "WHY DO YOU LIKE HIM?!"

Here's the answer to that so I can just be done with that.
I like him because of his songs. Yeah he has a higher voice, but the lyrics. AH. If a guy actually listened to those songs and took notes on them... He would have the girls falling for him LEFT and RIGHT because that is what every teenage girl wants for a guy! Seriously. . . It's like. Whoa. Justin! You understand those things that my hopelessly romantic brain thinks about!!!
He actually does write his songs B-T-DUBS, but he does have people help him write some.
But, what famous singer ever writes their own songs anymore??
... You know I have a point. Don't deny it.

That and, come on... He's adorable!

Now see. That just makes me happy(:

The cute brown puppy dog eyes, the hair, the look. It's just. Agh! Beautiful(:

So if you hate him. That's awesome. Just, keep it to you're self  please and I shall keep my love for Justin to my self as well.
See? now can we all just get along? :)

Not Good Enough... Ever

Dear Someone,

Ever wonder what random people think about you when you walk by?
When you're at school, on the beach, at the mall. In general pretty much.
Do they think "Oh hey look at that hot thing walking past me." Or. "huh.. Nice hair!" or. "My goodness. I see her everywhere!" or.. "Wow. That girl is F-A-T. Whoa. She needs some butter for those rolls."
...
Yeah you can't help but think about that when you hear girls complaining about how "huge" they are in their size 3 jeans.
So, how do you think that makes the girl wearing the pants that the size is about to go into the double digits feels?
Or when there is that girl who lifts up her shirt to look her her stomach and says "Ugh. Look at all that chub!" When there is no way you can actually lift up you're shirt to show them what real chubbiness looks like.

Yes, everyone tells you you're beautiful and you're not fat but... They are you're friends. They are supposed to say that.
It's hard not to fall into that stereotypical girl who looks in the mirror and picks her self apart.
Huge arms
Tummy rolls
But thighs
Extra Large everything. Can never get you're size at stores because everything is too small.

Its uncomfortable having to live in too small of clothing all the time because nothing fits. you feel like you just don't fit anywhere. Not just clothes. But. School, friends, family. Life.
No I'm not talking suicidal here ... come on people. I LOVE life too much to do that so just because I'm saying THAT doesn't mean anything. You shall see when I explain it in a moment.
But you need to work with you're passion. But what if you're passion is something you're not amazing at.
You're not good enough at anything. 
You're good at science, but that other girl knows more and gets better grades.
You're good at drawing, but that guy can paint a snap shot that look likes it was taken by a camera.

All that just makes you feel.... Like you're never good enough.



Dear Someone,

I hate those unanswered questions.
like.
What came first? The chicken or the egg?
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Why did all my examples have something to do with chickens?
...
See. It's not fun having those unanswerable questions....

:P

That Face, That Look, That Feeling

Dear Someone,

There is that face you always give.
Your eye brows pull together, making your brow fold a little.
You pull your lips in a little, making them look more like a line.

And to top everything off!

There are those eyes.
Completely locking on to the gaze of the other person. 
Two pools of utter misery from being worried.

That part can break anyone's wall they have around themselves.  Letting the flood gates open.  Tears streaming.

Yes. It's a terrible thing that happens.
But. You can't help it.  You can't make it happen.
It only happens when its for a person you care about.

The fact that I have had to endure the look.

Those heart wrenching eyes.
That sad, almost puppy dog like look. . .
That means I'm important to you. 

Somewhere in your heart, I'm there.

So, even though I hate that look you give me oh so many times,
I like it.
Because I know you care.

Dear Someone,

Even though it doesn't work NOW... Doesn't mean it wont later...
So... I'm gonna keep my hopes up, fingers crossed, and I'll just wait happily till everything gets worked out on its own.
:)

*Sigh*

Dear Someone,

..... Seriously???
..... Really??????
Ugh. You are so flippin stupid and you don't even realise it.
It's like "Hey!Hello there! Me! Slightly attractive girl RIGHT infront of you!!!" but no... You just kinda keep looking at that one girl. Who just happens to be kind of a jerk face who wears a pound of make up.
Yup . . . That's just sooo awesome.
I really love that. Thanks.
:P

Singles Awareness Day

Dear Someone,

Tomorrow is February 14th. You know what that means right?
Yes. The day that makes every single person out there feel like crap. You try not to but you can;t help but think about how lonely you are.
Lame right?
Why should I be thinking about how lonely I am? I'm only sixteen!
So. You know what.
I'm going to try REALLY hard to NOT think about how lame it is. You know. I'll just think about all the chocolate the popular girls are going to get and hope they get fat.
oh yes. That would be extremely funny. I think I would cry laughing. :)

You know what would be really cool....

Dear Someone,

You know what would be really cool?
Is to have have my own book get published or something.  Like . One full of tons of little random things I write.  Like things that I post on here. My Blog... The blog that no one reads.  That and the stuff that I save in my super secret folder on my about-to-die-of-old-age-lap top.
Yeah It could be called something like.
Awesome Sauce and French Fries.
OR!
..... Well I can't think of anything better at the moment....
BUT it shall come to me soon. :)
ok.
That's all I wanted to say for right now.

Me and Harry Potter Have Something In Common.

Dear Someone,

Every one has their own scars.  I know I do.
But see. Since its a scar now. It means it has healed.  It doesn't hurt any more.
..
Ok that was a lie. I am a liar pants.
It's pretty much like a Harry Potter scar.  It's there in plain view in front of everyone. They all know the story behind the scar and how it has effected me, but it doesn't hurt...
Unless you-know-who is around. and no. We are not talking about Voldemort in this situation right now.
It doesn't hurt every single time.  Actually its becoming less and less. But now. When it happens. It hurts worse.  But it only happens after something relatively cute happens. Or. Well could have been cute and then... That when things go down hill.
Even though it hurts sometimes...
I like that I have it.  It gives me recurrence that.. There used to be something there.  It wasn't just all in my head, or that it can just be brushed off to the side.  It's there. Forever. Making me grow up and learn from it.

Never Would Have Guessed By Just Looking.

Dear Someone,

You know how there is always that one person you see walking around school and you just can't figure them out to save your life. You hear "nicest person EVER! so funny and yet so naive about pretty much everything"
Never hurt a fly kind of a person, blah blah blah. Alright I get it. They are awesome. Whoopty Doo.
No matter you still get the vibe that there is something more to that person then what everyone sees...
It's funny / really sad when you actually find out that your gut instinct is correct.  You were right.  They are actually an evil master mind with an extremely deviant and complicated plan to ruin every one's life in high school to get what/who ever THEY want. Not caring about the destruction they create or the tears that come along with it.
It's mind blowing! You were actually right about something no one else understood.  But this person is like a spy with a cover up story and everything.
Now knowing this.  That little act they play, you now can spot out the fake in it.  See how they manipulate people around them. Befriend people to gain something for themselves.  
It's like a black whole.  You get pulled in by this powerful force then, once inside... No escaping. They have you in their clutches.  Now you're just a toy to them.  Like a Barbie Doll.  They can play with you, you think you are best friends never going to get separated. Then one day "Oops." (said very sarcastically by the way.)They just tore off your empty plastic head as they laugh like Mandark from Dexter's Laboratory.
...Sad huh?
But HEY! maybe you could have had a better life then just getting played and broken.  Maybe you could have been happy with someone else. But... now that chance came and past.

You never would have guessed that by just looking right?

Can I Please Have a Time Machine... Please?

Dear Someone,

Back to the Future. Really good movie! So are the other two. The whole idea of having a car that goes forward and backwards in time.  You can change how things turn out..
Personally I would just want one so i can go back and just watch everything from an outside perspective. Get a different view on things.  Catch some important details I had missed maybe.
Seriously.  I would go back to all those moments that are slowly starting to fade away from my memory.
Actually.. It would be really cool.  It would be like watching a movie of your life. 
And you know what.
I don't think I would want to change anything from the past. Who knows... It might throw off the space time continuum!!

So... I would like to have a Time Machine! Thank you very much.

Earphones.

Dear Someone,

I'm kind of tired of thinking. So, I'll just have my music fill my mind and think for me instead.  They seem to get life more then my brain possibly ever could. So. I'm gonna put my ear phones in and drown in the soft velvet that is called music.