But I Doubt That

Dear Someone,


Everyone has those random down times were they are just kind of chillin' out and just thinking about stuff. Like. I don't know, I always find my self reflecting on Middle School.

Like me, everyone on the face of the planet; their worst years were Middle School. Those are the years of the uncomfortable transition from a child to a teenager. You don't know how to deal with zits let alone  make-up.  You gotta figure out what clothes are cool and what aren't.  The constant feeling of fitting in.  Looking back, you were basally trying to be a clone of someone who started the newest trend for the twelve year olds...
It's kinda like Twitter and everyone is retweeting something.
Fortunately, Inever reached the full on copy-cat level. (Who knows what I'd be like if I had... o.o)
But, lot's of stuff happened... More like friends.  Making them, losing them. That stuff. But one moment sticks out in my brain all the time that just makes me want to hid under a blanket from the awkwardness that is forever tied with it.

This kid. (a very stupid boy if you ask me.) told me he liked me. And after a few awkward encounters of trying to flirt we ended up kissing. (Which is a big deal! I wasn't one of those girls who would be givin' out free kisses in the slide at recess) But clearly our relationship went down the tubes after a few hours. And I was made fun of for a while... Great right? Just one of the OTHER beautiful things about middle school. Teasing.

Anyway. The point of me telling that snip it of my life, I'm friends with this guy on Facebook. I just see his profile picture and it's just his face RIGHT THERE smiling as he stares at me scrollin' though my news feeds.  It's so awkward cause it's like...
Really?
The one time I had anything remotely close to "love" and it had to be you? Of all 6 billion people out there in the world? You? Really? Clearly someone out there hates me -.-
And there he is on Facebook with a new girl friend every now and then.  And I'm just left sitting there thinking... Girly, you must be one desperate girl or his actually changed a lot to be a somewhat tolerable to be around...
But I Doubt That.