Stuck In a Bad Taylor Swift Song

Dear Someone,

Ever had a song that just completely described your life down to a "T"?

Oh, I know I have many many MANY  times. And let me tell you! Most of mine are Taylor Swift Songs.

I hate to admit it but I do enjoy her music when I'm in the mood... Usually pondering over my love life and or life in general. But for some reason they seem to just be the best songs to float around in the background.

Yet, every now and then... She has a song that just makes you want to wear a huge puffy dress, throw on a mask and crash a fancy ball and meet you're prince charming!

Why not? Might as well make you're love life happen. I mean, sitting on the couch and watching Jersey Shore isn't getting you anywhere.

Might as well take you're love life in you hands right? 

FOREVER in The Dreaded Friend Zone

Trying to form a functional relationship with a guy is a delicate thing.  There is a very thin line between in the "FOREVER Friend Zone" and "Agh. No. You Creep Me Out... Zone"
Either there is too much on the line to move onto the next step or you were too intense to start off with and it came off as if you were a stalker.
It takes a talented person to know the right speed that will send them gracefully down awesome relationship ally.

Sadly, for girls like me, we don't know how to get to the destination we want without looking like a crash-test dumby, and landing us right into the wrong place.

Which is a real relationship.
So, not knowing how to handle something like this. what happens is we end up in the Friend Zone.

Now, for me on the other hand.  I am in the FOREVER friend zone. You know what that means?

He will love you forever and always...
Just not the way you want him to love you.

Which sucks. Cause, you want to hate him for putting you through all those awful emotions.
YET, you can't cause he isn't really doing anything bad. He's not leading you on at all; not even in the slightest bit.
He just isn't interested... Which is lame.
Because, if you had entered the friendship liking them to begin with... Then it's just like you failed your own secret mission you assigned yourself
You were close, but didn't get what you were aiming for.
Basically, you failed at making someone fall in love with you.

But, that's not a bad thing though.  Maybe a relationship of that kind would have been toxic to the both of you.
Great as best friends.
Awful as a couple...

But then it also sucks if you know for a fact y'all would be perfect together... Then life sucks.
Those hopeless thoughts pop into your head about what it could be like.
You are constantly disappointed by the out come of something that could have been that one moment everything changes.
You end up just crying your eye's out just to later have him ask whats wrong.
Hmm. What are you gonna say?
"Ha it's you. Your the problem. I love you."
HAHA ... Yeah. THAT would workout...

Sigh... Just being in the FOREVER friend zone is a hard.

Now, JUST the "friend zone" is not nearly as bad. Because, that means that there is always a moment were it can all change.

I kind of think of it as a flower.  The friendship is the dirt and soil, water is time and learning about each other.  With a good mix of the two, a beautiful love can grow and bloom.  All it had to do was take some time, but it's so beautiful it's worth the wait.

Ah yes. These are the things I think about... Hm. Is it just me? If not. Leave a comment. So then I know SOMEONE else get's it.

Oh! Here it is again! Valentine's Day

Dear Someone,

Yes, today is February 13th, which is the day before the "most-romantic-day" of the year.

I found the blog post I put up exactly a year ago. Wanna see it? Here it is.

"Dear Someone,

Tomorrow is February 14th. You know what that means right?

Yes. The day that makes every single person out there feel like crap. You try not to but you can't help but think about how lonely you are.

Lame right?

Why should I be thinking about how lonely I am? I'm only sixteen!

So. You know what.

I'm going to try REALLY hard to NOT think about how lame it is. You know. I'll just think about all the chocolate the popular girls are going to get and hope they get fat.

oh yes. That would be extremely funny. I think I would cry laughing :)"

And you know, I remember writing this.  And what I was thinking to myself at the time was, "You know. Maybe next year you'll find a guy and actually for the first time in your life have a real Valentine's date! And maybe you wont feel so lame for getting chocolate from your friends!!" 

Well! It's been a year.  I'm another year older there for wiser... and I still don't like Valentine's day.  Out of all the people you know you think I would be the one who loves it, but I don't.  Maybe it's because my love life as been one EPIC fail and hasn't even gotten anywhere (believe me.  I have tried.)

Now there are going to be people who just think I'm a negative person for disliking Valentine's day.  But to be honest? The only people who like it aren't single. 

The thing I am dreading the most about this "lovely" day is watching those girls walk around with flowers and stuffed animals from guys/boyfriends/secret admires; while my hands are completely empty. 

That's always fun realizing that no one whats to be in a relationship with you.

*heavy sarcasm*

Well. The only good thing about tomorrow is that it's a Tuesday meaning new Glee and watch it with my friends. SO, that's good I guess, cause I know it's going to be cute. 

There is a diffrence between watching cute things happen to people on TV then in real life.  On TV you know it's been rehearsed and written out.  In real life? It's actually happening in front of you, not just behind a glass box. 

Yeah, it's like in the movie "Valentine's Day" And Taylor Swift got that GIANT teddy bear from Tyalor Lautner and she carried it around with her at school all day.... I don't want to see that. 

GLEE!!!! New Valentine's Day Episode... Only thing I'm ok with for Valentine's day... That and Chocolate... 

Oh Music....

Dear Someone,

You know those songs that you just can't get enough of? That ONE song is constantly playing on repeat for weeks on end. It's so good cause it hits your soul... But it also makes you want to cry? (yet you don't cause that would be awkward?)

(Kissed You) Goodnight but Gloriana

Yup that's my song that I never stops playing; yet makes me want to curl up in a ball and eat chocolate to fill the void of a lonely heart. (dramatic, yes) Why you ask?  Well first let start with how I found it.

So my friend Maddie showed it to me (she is REALLY amazing at picking out country music for me since I am so picky about it.  She just knows.  And I always like them :)

Anyway, we are drivin' in my car, listening to the Country station, that she so graciously found for me. So we are just sitting there jammin' out to Red Solo Cup by Toby Keith (you know, like every cool kid does.) and then it went to commercial, she looks over at me and says,
"Ok, There is this song that plays on this station ALL the time and every time I listen to it I think 'Oh my goodness Brooke would LOVE this song' So. you need to listen to it."

So, she showed me it ... and of course I liked it. It was cute!

It's about a boy and how he took a girl out on a first date like he really liked.  Then when he dropped her off after, he left without a goodnight kiss. So, fear of regretting NOT kissing her; he get's out of his truck (yup. cause his a country boy) and runs back up to her front porch and right as he's about to knock on the door.  It swings open and she's there. and BAM they kiss, and then they completed it and are now head-over-heals in love... and this is the part you say AW :)

Anyway, even though I love this song with a passion, it makes me sad.  Cause to be honest, I would REALLY enjoy a cute guy with a southern accent who is too nervous to kiss me... and is sexy as hell. That would also be a nice plus ;)

Yes, I just had a whinny teenage girl moment. But haven't we all? (guys, this applies to you too. Don't deny it.)

But you can't help it, the strums of the guitar, the smooth tone of the words being song.  It's from the heart / anything sounds good when a southern guys sings it. JUST SAYIN!

so. Here's a link!
Please. Go watch it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzMQu4zTtK8

That is all :)

I Feel Like Death.

Dear Someone,

Ok, despite what the title to this post is.  I'm not actually dying.

I just feel like it... I have a cold. Went to the doctor. Sinus completely swollen making it next to impossible to breath out of my nose. Meaning. I have to breath out of my mouth, making my lips dry, cracked, and defiantly not kissable.  That and when I talk I sound like a man.  I'm a 17 year old girl and I sound like a dude... Not attractive on any level what so ever.

But then again. Who really DOES look good when there sick?
Exactly. No one.
Being sick just makes you feel ten million times uglier then you think you are.

But I went yesterday, Doctor took one look at me and went "Ew." and gave me a grocery list of pills for me to take.  So of course. I take them.  Not happily either... Yes, my mom is so proud to have a 17 year old daughter who freaks out when she has to take a nose spray. (...sorry Mom...)

Well. Even after taking the pills, blowing my nose, and drinking more liquids then I ever do.  I don't feel better... My stomach is unhappy about the pills, my nose feels like it has a sunburn from the all the tissues rubbing my skin raw, and my bladder wants to kill me.

So. Here i am, on the couch, tissues surrounding me.  TV on but being unwatched. and my dog barking and sitting on floor looking at me with with a ball next to her just waiting for me to jump up and play with her.

And all I can think is right now (cause I can't talk without sounding like a man/my throat feeling like it's on fire.)

""Dog. Why?!... Do you not see I'm in pain of the worst kind?.... Stupid dog.""

I will eventually feel bad for thinking my dog is stupid (even though she is) I still love her cause when she's not annoying she is Nurse Penny to the Rescue! She likes to sit with me, licking my face thinking that her magical dog slobber will cure me of my ailment. But it doesn't, it's just flat out gross.

Now. That I wrote all of this out and I have a strong feeling that me getting a date later on in life will be extremely difficult after any guy finds out how unattractive I can be,  BUT COME ON. I'm sick.
I doubt you look like a Man Candy all the time. :P

Haha. Can't believe I am posting this picture BUT! here it is. Me in all of my beautiful sickness. 

No makeup, feel like crap. Lovely ain't it??? ;) 

... 

Don't answer that. 

But yeah, there ya have it. 

I Feel Like Death. 

Summer Breeze

Dear Someone,

You thought you were the world to someone.

Really though, you were just a summer breeze.  Cooling them off for a moment, making them happy; thankful you were there.

Then, you're gone and they never really thank you for it or think back to you. You were there for a brief moment, then you disappeared.

Why do people let that happen? Let something good glide past them, glancing at their beauty for only those seconds they are there, then let them keep moving on?  Were is the good in that?

Is because us as people think we are not worth of actually having someone that is perfect for us, or that we are so superficial that we only go for what's in style instead of how precious it is?

Take for instance.

Teenagers now.  A majority of them think that being stick thin and orange is the way to look.  And to match that look is to go out and sleep with everyone in sight while you are so drunk there isn't eve a blur to remember it.

Yes. Super attractive.  Something everyone wants to end up with in the long run.  Now I'm not saying this is every one out there.  But, for what i have gathered.  That's what gets you noticed.

What happened to knowing what someones heart is like? What thoughts run thoughts their head? What they dream about, things that make them want to change the world? Those things that are important.

Yet, those people who have a deeper connection to them selfs besides knowing what shade of orange they are -because there is a difference between mac&cheese and tangerine- get passed by.  They keep gliding through life just waiting for someone to grab them.  Protect them from hurt.

Making you their world, instead of just the summer breeze.

Hunger Games

Dear Someone,

So! I just recently (meaning last night at like 2 in the morning) finished reading the last book in "Then Hunger Games" trilogy.  I loved it. Every book.  I thought they were well written and really painted a mental picture for you.  Which is important to have in every book or else it's not worth reading.

On the other hand, like with every book, There were a few things I would have liked to change.
Like one being a few things about the main character Katniss but that's just me.  Another would have been how it ended.

(I'm going to try and not give too much away here so no worries)

But you might have heard that she goes crazy. Like, off the deep end. So that's what I was expecting while reading it.  I was ready for it, but when I actually got to it, she wasn't crazy.  She was just having an extreme state of grieving. She had lost a lot of people.  Think about it.  If you had lost a laundry list of people wouldn't you go slightly mad? I would so I saw where that was coming from. The end of the book did not end with a bang, it was very mild.  But it was a nice ended to an extremely active book.

Ummmm.... What else.....
Oh! so the movie for the first one is coming out in March. (I'm supper excited :) and you know what..
I am super excited to see Peeta... Cause he is played by Josh Hutcherson.... I love that actor... I mean...

Look at him!!!
<<<
I mean, who WOULDN'T like that ?! ;)

Anyway, I'm probably gonna get smacking in the theater by one of my friends because I shall be slightly freaking out when he comes on the screen.
Not gonna lie. It happens in any movie with an attractive actor.

Anyway!
... That's all I can think to say about the book with out talking about things that happened in it. And that would give away too much for people who haven't/still reading it.