Oh! Here it is again! Valentine's Day

Dear Someone,

Yes, today is February 13th, which is the day before the "most-romantic-day" of the year.

I found the blog post I put up exactly a year ago. Wanna see it? Here it is.

"Dear Someone,

Tomorrow is February 14th. You know what that means right?

Yes. The day that makes every single person out there feel like crap. You try not to but you can't help but think about how lonely you are.

Lame right?

Why should I be thinking about how lonely I am? I'm only sixteen!

So. You know what.

I'm going to try REALLY hard to NOT think about how lame it is. You know. I'll just think about all the chocolate the popular girls are going to get and hope they get fat.

oh yes. That would be extremely funny. I think I would cry laughing :)"

And you know, I remember writing this.  And what I was thinking to myself at the time was, "You know. Maybe next year you'll find a guy and actually for the first time in your life have a real Valentine's date! And maybe you wont feel so lame for getting chocolate from your friends!!" 

Well! It's been a year.  I'm another year older there for wiser... and I still don't like Valentine's day.  Out of all the people you know you think I would be the one who loves it, but I don't.  Maybe it's because my love life as been one EPIC fail and hasn't even gotten anywhere (believe me.  I have tried.)

Now there are going to be people who just think I'm a negative person for disliking Valentine's day.  But to be honest? The only people who like it aren't single. 

The thing I am dreading the most about this "lovely" day is watching those girls walk around with flowers and stuffed animals from guys/boyfriends/secret admires; while my hands are completely empty. 

That's always fun realizing that no one whats to be in a relationship with you.

*heavy sarcasm*

Well. The only good thing about tomorrow is that it's a Tuesday meaning new Glee and watch it with my friends. SO, that's good I guess, cause I know it's going to be cute. 

There is a diffrence between watching cute things happen to people on TV then in real life.  On TV you know it's been rehearsed and written out.  In real life? It's actually happening in front of you, not just behind a glass box. 

Yeah, it's like in the movie "Valentine's Day" And Taylor Swift got that GIANT teddy bear from Tyalor Lautner and she carried it around with her at school all day.... I don't want to see that. 

GLEE!!!! New Valentine's Day Episode... Only thing I'm ok with for Valentine's day... That and Chocolate... 

Oh Music....

Dear Someone,

You know those songs that you just can't get enough of? That ONE song is constantly playing on repeat for weeks on end. It's so good cause it hits your soul... But it also makes you want to cry? (yet you don't cause that would be awkward?)

(Kissed You) Goodnight but Gloriana

Yup that's my song that I never stops playing; yet makes me want to curl up in a ball and eat chocolate to fill the void of a lonely heart. (dramatic, yes) Why you ask?  Well first let start with how I found it.

So my friend Maddie showed it to me (she is REALLY amazing at picking out country music for me since I am so picky about it.  She just knows.  And I always like them :)

Anyway, we are drivin' in my car, listening to the Country station, that she so graciously found for me. So we are just sitting there jammin' out to Red Solo Cup by Toby Keith (you know, like every cool kid does.) and then it went to commercial, she looks over at me and says,
"Ok, There is this song that plays on this station ALL the time and every time I listen to it I think 'Oh my goodness Brooke would LOVE this song' So. you need to listen to it."

So, she showed me it ... and of course I liked it. It was cute!

It's about a boy and how he took a girl out on a first date like he really liked.  Then when he dropped her off after, he left without a goodnight kiss. So, fear of regretting NOT kissing her; he get's out of his truck (yup. cause his a country boy) and runs back up to her front porch and right as he's about to knock on the door.  It swings open and she's there. and BAM they kiss, and then they completed it and are now head-over-heals in love... and this is the part you say AW :)

Anyway, even though I love this song with a passion, it makes me sad.  Cause to be honest, I would REALLY enjoy a cute guy with a southern accent who is too nervous to kiss me... and is sexy as hell. That would also be a nice plus ;)

Yes, I just had a whinny teenage girl moment. But haven't we all? (guys, this applies to you too. Don't deny it.)

But you can't help it, the strums of the guitar, the smooth tone of the words being song.  It's from the heart / anything sounds good when a southern guys sings it. JUST SAYIN!

so. Here's a link!
Please. Go watch it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rzMQu4zTtK8

That is all :)

I Feel Like Death.

Dear Someone,

Ok, despite what the title to this post is.  I'm not actually dying.

I just feel like it... I have a cold. Went to the doctor. Sinus completely swollen making it next to impossible to breath out of my nose. Meaning. I have to breath out of my mouth, making my lips dry, cracked, and defiantly not kissable.  That and when I talk I sound like a man.  I'm a 17 year old girl and I sound like a dude... Not attractive on any level what so ever.

But then again. Who really DOES look good when there sick?
Exactly. No one.
Being sick just makes you feel ten million times uglier then you think you are.

But I went yesterday, Doctor took one look at me and went "Ew." and gave me a grocery list of pills for me to take.  So of course. I take them.  Not happily either... Yes, my mom is so proud to have a 17 year old daughter who freaks out when she has to take a nose spray. (...sorry Mom...)

Well. Even after taking the pills, blowing my nose, and drinking more liquids then I ever do.  I don't feel better... My stomach is unhappy about the pills, my nose feels like it has a sunburn from the all the tissues rubbing my skin raw, and my bladder wants to kill me.

So. Here i am, on the couch, tissues surrounding me.  TV on but being unwatched. and my dog barking and sitting on floor looking at me with with a ball next to her just waiting for me to jump up and play with her.

And all I can think is right now (cause I can't talk without sounding like a man/my throat feeling like it's on fire.)

""Dog. Why?!... Do you not see I'm in pain of the worst kind?.... Stupid dog.""

I will eventually feel bad for thinking my dog is stupid (even though she is) I still love her cause when she's not annoying she is Nurse Penny to the Rescue! She likes to sit with me, licking my face thinking that her magical dog slobber will cure me of my ailment. But it doesn't, it's just flat out gross.

Now. That I wrote all of this out and I have a strong feeling that me getting a date later on in life will be extremely difficult after any guy finds out how unattractive I can be,  BUT COME ON. I'm sick.
I doubt you look like a Man Candy all the time. :P

Haha. Can't believe I am posting this picture BUT! here it is. Me in all of my beautiful sickness. 

No makeup, feel like crap. Lovely ain't it??? ;) 

... 

Don't answer that. 

But yeah, there ya have it. 

I Feel Like Death.