Not Good Enough... Ever

Dear Someone,

Ever wonder what random people think about you when you walk by?
When you're at school, on the beach, at the mall. In general pretty much.
Do they think "Oh hey look at that hot thing walking past me." Or. "huh.. Nice hair!" or. "My goodness. I see her everywhere!" or.. "Wow. That girl is F-A-T. Whoa. She needs some butter for those rolls."
...
Yeah you can't help but think about that when you hear girls complaining about how "huge" they are in their size 3 jeans.
So, how do you think that makes the girl wearing the pants that the size is about to go into the double digits feels?
Or when there is that girl who lifts up her shirt to look her her stomach and says "Ugh. Look at all that chub!" When there is no way you can actually lift up you're shirt to show them what real chubbiness looks like.

Yes, everyone tells you you're beautiful and you're not fat but... They are you're friends. They are supposed to say that.
It's hard not to fall into that stereotypical girl who looks in the mirror and picks her self apart.
Huge arms
Tummy rolls
But thighs
Extra Large everything. Can never get you're size at stores because everything is too small.

Its uncomfortable having to live in too small of clothing all the time because nothing fits. you feel like you just don't fit anywhere. Not just clothes. But. School, friends, family. Life.
No I'm not talking suicidal here ... come on people. I LOVE life too much to do that so just because I'm saying THAT doesn't mean anything. You shall see when I explain it in a moment.
But you need to work with you're passion. But what if you're passion is something you're not amazing at.
You're not good enough at anything. 
You're good at science, but that other girl knows more and gets better grades.
You're good at drawing, but that guy can paint a snap shot that look likes it was taken by a camera.

All that just makes you feel.... Like you're never good enough.