I Feel Like Death.

Dear Someone,

Ok, despite what the title to this post is.  I'm not actually dying.

I just feel like it... I have a cold. Went to the doctor. Sinus completely swollen making it next to impossible to breath out of my nose. Meaning. I have to breath out of my mouth, making my lips dry, cracked, and defiantly not kissable.  That and when I talk I sound like a man.  I'm a 17 year old girl and I sound like a dude... Not attractive on any level what so ever.

But then again. Who really DOES look good when there sick?
Exactly. No one.
Being sick just makes you feel ten million times uglier then you think you are.

But I went yesterday, Doctor took one look at me and went "Ew." and gave me a grocery list of pills for me to take.  So of course. I take them.  Not happily either... Yes, my mom is so proud to have a 17 year old daughter who freaks out when she has to take a nose spray. (...sorry Mom...)

Well. Even after taking the pills, blowing my nose, and drinking more liquids then I ever do.  I don't feel better... My stomach is unhappy about the pills, my nose feels like it has a sunburn from the all the tissues rubbing my skin raw, and my bladder wants to kill me.

So. Here i am, on the couch, tissues surrounding me.  TV on but being unwatched. and my dog barking and sitting on floor looking at me with with a ball next to her just waiting for me to jump up and play with her.

And all I can think is right now (cause I can't talk without sounding like a man/my throat feeling like it's on fire.)

""Dog. Why?!... Do you not see I'm in pain of the worst kind?.... Stupid dog.""

I will eventually feel bad for thinking my dog is stupid (even though she is) I still love her cause when she's not annoying she is Nurse Penny to the Rescue! She likes to sit with me, licking my face thinking that her magical dog slobber will cure me of my ailment. But it doesn't, it's just flat out gross.

Now. That I wrote all of this out and I have a strong feeling that me getting a date later on in life will be extremely difficult after any guy finds out how unattractive I can be,  BUT COME ON. I'm sick.
I doubt you look like a Man Candy all the time. :P

Haha. Can't believe I am posting this picture BUT! here it is. Me in all of my beautiful sickness. 

No makeup, feel like crap. Lovely ain't it??? ;) 

... 

Don't answer that. 

But yeah, there ya have it. 

I Feel Like Death.