Dear Someone,
I was completely over it. It happened what seems like forever ago. It was all in the past, nothing to worry about. Everything got worked out, I understood the reasoning of the other person.
Yet, yesterday, I realise something. I realise the lie that was told straight to my face. That one night that happened forever ago flooded back into my head. (Ok it was really only two weekends ago.) My new found information fitting in perfectly with every word said, every action made. This made the awful heartbroken feeling come back, harder this time because its not so confusing and fuzzy any more. The cuts reopened, creases refolded. Tears coming to my eyes out of frustration and my stupidity. The defiant feeling of being cheated on was there... Even though I know I wasn't, not really. Emotionally? Yes, I guess you could agree.
I'm deciding to not tell any one what I discovered. I don't want to reopen the drama that had happened that night as well. Sides suddenly chosen, people hating the others with out me realising. People coming up and saying "I'm on your side on this". How could they be on "my side" if I was still undecided? I'd rather not get people pissed off again. Avoiding the stressful drama is probably the best thing to do.
There is no way to escape drama through. Somewhere out there someone is always causing it. Guys or girls. Lot's of people think guys have "no drama" and girls are just full of it. I happen to think that is a load of crap. Guys cause a lot of drama, too. They are just more chill about it. That's just my perspective of that though, other people can think what ever they want. I personally don't care.
But, either way. That whole thing is just stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. So it should be a snap to get over it, right? Psh, not that big of a deal. It's stupid stuff, no need to cry over it. People sometimes don't realise it but...
Stupid Stuff Hurts, Too.
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